Dicky Ekland, a former boxing hero from a small city in MA, was a crack addict. HBO was following him as they did a documentary about his addiction. They asked him to explain the reasons for his problem. He basically said that the drug took him to a place where the physical and mental pains were gone, correct choices had been made, regret was not seen, and wonder was imaginary. Life was simple and dreams were still vivid and anything was possible. Then the ugly all returns and you'd do anything to have the bliss return back so you light up again...and again...and again...and the ugly cycle continues.
It seems that the drug addict doesn't want to "feel" the problems they are facing. So instead of feeling them and dealing with the problem they go to place where all their problems are gone for a moment. The problem is when the high is gone the problems are still there.
Hopefully this foundation can help families help the addict break this cycle. We are not walking away from our problems anymore. We are not going to think our problems will go away. The addict is going to "feel" whatever it is that is making them turn to drugs. The addict is not going to medicate themselves anymore. No hiding, no holding back, no running away. We as a family will get through this. We will help you "feel", help take away your fear of living a "clean" life and we will all heal from this!
If I had known there were people there to help me feel and experience what I needed to feel and experience, I would have gone through it in a heartbeat. I didn't know. When I tried to reach out, I got shut down... I believe that no one knew what I was trying to say, because I didn't know what I was trying to say...
ReplyDeleteI NEEDED my addictions to survive. They served a purpose that, in my case, actually kept me alive long enough to learn what I needed to learn. I know that many don't survive though, and the fact that I am still here and can finally enjoy my life is one I am very, VERY grateful for.
I'm also very grateful for people like you who are trying to change the world.
Thanks, so much for sharing. It's all about starting somewhere...being willing to start. We don't have all of the answers, but we are on a dedicated search to try and make information available, and just have a place to express. So glad you are here.
ReplyDeleteWe went and saw this flick, Saturday...it was gut wrenching reality. Loved the integrity of the story...loved how the two brothers finally got it together, together...hope our little family is willing to fight as hard for each other.
ReplyDelete...Courage does not always ROAR!
ReplyDelete